Die Lebenden und die Toten

Der Schlüssel für den Notausgang

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Der Schriftsteller Peter Prange findet, dass der Tod der Freund des Lebens  ist, weil er es  wertvoll macht.

Der Schriftsteller Peter Prange findet, dass der Tod der Freund des Lebens ist, weil er es wertvoll macht.

Foto: Christian Schulz

Wie Bestsellerautor Peter Prange das Sterben lernte, mit Depressionen kämpfte und sich seine letzten Worte vorstellt.

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Ein Blick um die nächste Ecke: Was ist da noch im Leben?

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