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Eine Aussteigerin erzählt, was ihr Afrika beigebracht hat

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Janina Zillekens
Erst in Afrika hat die ehemalige Journalistin innere Stille gefunden

Erst in Afrika hat die ehemalige Journalistin innere Stille gefunden

Foto: Gesa NeitzeL

Gesa Neitzel hat sich im afrikanischen Busch zur Rangerin ausbilden lassen. In ihrem neuen Buch erzählt sie, wie sie das verändert hat.

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Gesa Neitzels „The Wonderful Wild“: Der innere Kritiker und die Achtsamkeit

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Mit der Natur im Einklang

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