Belletristik

Liebe im Kriegsrecht: „Im Wasser sind wir schwerelos“

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Peter Zander
Tomasz Jedrowski, als Kind polnischer Eltern in Westdeutschland aufgewachsen, lebt heute in Paris.

Tomasz Jedrowski, als Kind polnischer Eltern in Westdeutschland aufgewachsen, lebt heute in Paris.

Foto: Luka Łukasiak/Vogue Polska

Schwimm dich frei: Tomasz Jedroswkis Romandebüt „Im Wasser sind wir schwerelos“ handelt von einem Coming-Out im kommunistischen Polen.

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Coming-Out und politische Selbstfindung

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Recherche im Land der Eltern

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Kontroverse Reaktionen in Polen

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